I've been fighting with depression lately. I've been ill for 19 years now, it's very isolating and I'm really struggling. I'm fully aware that I'm struggling and along with all of this my brain likes to catastrophise things. Let's just say the last six weeks haven't been fun. Along the way, I've written a few things down and scrapped a few feelings out and I'm sharing some of that here today. "7 th February I'm having a really rough time lately. My physical pains are always worse in winter - the cold gets into my joints and my muscles are easily tweaked. Also, February is the anniversary of me falling ill. It will be 19 years next week. Sigh! I try not to dwell on it but it does affect me. It seems all of the things try and create are just not coming off. I'm losing photos, getting spelling wrong, smudging ink. I thought I'd do some fussy cutting and caught my trousers in the scissors. So I took to praying... P...